| So lately guys life hasn't been too great. I'm sure that people have it worse than me but right now my life is at the lowest point. Family wise it sucks with my dad and his wife whom i can't stand. She makes my life miserable. School wise i have good grades and my friends are great i love them but lately there has been trouble brewin in the group and so seems like there's about to be a cat fight. I'm few months away from graduating and it doesn't seem like it can come any faster.Then the whole moving and getting an apartment and getting away from my lovely two story house tha's so full of chaos to a nice unchaotic aprtment. Wow now i know why i can't wait. Ohh and guys i hope ya'll have been having a great year.Okay |
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| hey guys love you have a hapyy chrismakwanzkwa. ya know whatever you celebrate. love all of you bunches. |
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| hey guys how has everyone been?? i've been better. anyways i just stopping by to say have a great week and good luck on finals if your taking them. |
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| so basically i have been depending heavily on my two best friends lately. All the chaos going on in my home life. see it's peaceful for me but with my happiness someone has to get hurt. So i am left wondering if it's all worth it. I don't run from situations never have i face them regardless of what happens cause everything happens for a reason. It's just i've been so happy lately but that is me being selfish to others. I opened my eyes and now I see what i have been refusing to see this whole time my dads utter depression at what is going on. SO i want to stop being selfish but it's so hard to not be selfish in this situation . Seeing my dad in this current state makes me hurt alot more than anyone else realizes cause i put up this massive front and pretend that everything is gonna be alright but it's not. If i'm happy someone else won't be and i have always been the person who has put others feelings before hers and it all fell down these past few months.I have been so utterly selfish guys. So now i go back to being the one un happy so someone else will remain happy. Most people would say your stupid speak up fight for what you believe in... and I have fought till i was nothing ....fought till i was blue in the face..fought till i wanted to die cause i knew i'd be dead in the morning for what i had said but i said it and that's all that matters.Then i have to deal with the stuff about STUPID CHICKS calling names behind my back don't even have the BALLs to say it to my face. ANyways had to vent .. WOw suprisingly this helped alot. |
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| homecoming was crazy . i styayed all weekend at caylas apt and we had so much fun just her jen and I. i saw ciara love her so much! Everyone looked like they were having fun so that's good. got senior pics in they are so not good retakes anyone. Jamie benjamin i hope you read this cause what you tell people does get around to me like what a lesbian i am haha  NO! I Am not ONE !! what you said was so messed up especially since i have not done anything rude to you ever. I have had plenty of boyfriends and have never thought about a girl in a sexual light. so i hope you read this and apologize cause it was uncalled for and untrue. |
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